Hello and welcome back to my blog!
I know I haven’t written a blog post for a long time. Last year was my final year of studies and I was writing my thesis (and working fulltime). I’m relieved to report I have handed in my thesis and am now waiting for my grade. I had to pour all of my energy and time into it. Everything else had to be placed on hold, including this blog.
This year I want to focus my efforts back onto my creativity and writing. I have started working on a short story, but I will publish it under an alias. The reason for that is it’s an erotic short story. While I’m not ashamed of writing that genre (hence why I’m mentioning it here), I have had my fair share of creeps messaging me on the internet, and I doubt promoting an erotic short story under my real name will help in that regard…
I had written quite a bit of another short story I was going to publish on here, but my laptop had had enough of me in December 2021 and I lost everything on my hard drive, including the short story. Lesson learnt from this; always back up your data. And back it up onto several places, not just one USB key! And don’t wait for a task to be completed before saving it externally. Trust me, losing an advanced thesis draft 10 days before the submission deadline is *painful* to say the least…
I am yet to plan out 2022 and set writing goals for this year. January and February have been a bit full-on, so I prefer to wait for things to calm down before setting writing goals. This also brings me to my reflections on 2021.
I have come to the realization I have put my wellbeing and happiness in the background. For years I have done this, but it has only become obvious to me in the past few months. I had seen my happiness as a reward to be granted at the end of accomplishing a tedious task, meaning I have always decided to do what was expected of me, or what was pressing, instead of asking myself what I would actually like to do. And since there is always something pressing that needs doing, I never rewarded myself.
Certain incidents last year have rocked that thinking, forcing me to reflect on myself and how I live my life. Maybe it’s also been spurred on by the pandemic. People start questioning the way they live in light of the “return to normal” narrative. Do we really want to go back to how things were? In some aspects certainly. In others maybe this is the time to implement change.
I for one do not want to have deadlines imposed on myself again. I would like to set goals for this year, but I do not want any outsider having control over those goals. I do not want to enroll in another course for example, even though I’d like to learn something new this year. It needs to be in a setting where I dictate the time and effort I put into it, allowing me to pause whenever I want to.
I would also like to explore my creativity deeper and experiment with different genres and mediums. This means this blog might go off in all directions, so I apologize in advance if things become a bit chaotic as I try to figure things out.
What are your goals for 2022? What have you learnt from 2021?